presence-of-the-dead

2005-10-27T22:32:00.000-07:00

GO TO
http://unbecominghatred.blogspot.com
do not go here anymore
this blog is HISTORY!!!
wahahhahahahha

2005-10-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

YOU PPL ARE KILLING ME I HATE IT

(no comments)

2005-09-25T19:11:00.000-07:00

i am going to pass my gradingg man
i just noe it
yayyy

''slap yourself,charmaine.''
''who do u think u r?you're not allowed to be happy.think about what u did do u have any right to be happy at all??''
(charmaine)''yes you're right.sorry.''
''do u think apologies will help?will it help huh?slap yourself''
<>
''thats more like it''

i hate charmaine and myself

2005-09-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

i hate her and i hate me
i hate you
i hate me
in short i hate
me and me and me
and me and me and me and me

top ten reasons why i hate myslf or me or i or whatever:

1)i screwed my life for stealing away my ex-best friend's boyfriend
2)i keep on thinking about stuff i did and it really hurts
3)i hate myself for being an idiot who only cares about herself and not for others
4)i hate myself for being such a wimp not being able to face up to reality
5)i hate myaelf bcos all i do is to hurt ppl and hurt even more ppl instead i get hurt
6)i just hate you charmaine because you did something i can never forgive you or myself
7)i am such a loser , we all noe that
8)my life is so screwed up beyond recognization that i haev nowhere to turn to , just going through all the shit i did to her.(her is not me)
9)the past stilll is in my life and i cannot escape i just keep on thinking about it
10)charmaine is dumb and stupid she sucks, CHARMAINE YOU HEAR ME?I HATE YOU TO BITS I WANNA KILL YOU SO YOU BETTER WATCH OUT.

everything that you have read from the above is really from my heart
i really hate myself
and boy,im crying now i cannot type any longer.
i wanna slash more and more and more
until all the blood flows out
until i die
then i can forget about all the sins i commited

foodies

2005-09-22T18:57:00.000-07:00

i have eaten a yoghurt and some chips

please remind me
not to buy low fat yoghurt anymore
it tastes yuckyy

i wanna be FAT
grow to 40 kg end of the yearr

my whole world is falling apart

2005-09-17T12:10:00.000-07:00

sighh
i give up
it was nice picture :(

oh well
im feeling darn depressed todayy
because of ..
oh well i dun wanna say it.

i feel darn ********
so maybe i might be better *** ****
i shall leave it to your to figure
out the asterickss
hmmm..
eleee!
your bloggie nicer laioxx
but frankly,i still prefer the second one
did i mention that ur bro sounds a lil bit gayy on e fone?
hmmmm..
oh well but i guess the voice doesnt realli count
personality ??
hmmm..

i love my humps!
(errr..not my humps~i mean-the song my humps-
just in case your got the wrong idea!!)

''my humps''
[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside your trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely little lumps

Check it out...

I drive these brothers crazy
I do it on the daily
they treat me really nicely
They buy me all these ices
Dolce and Gabbana
Fendi and then Donna Karen
They be sharin
All their money got me wearin fly
brother i ain't askin',
They say they love mah ass in
Seven Jeans
True religion
I say no
but they keep givin
So I keep on takin
And no I aint taken'
We can keep on datin
ill keep on demonstrating

My love my love my love my love
you love my lady lumps
my hump my hump my hump
my humps they got you..

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..and spendin time on me..

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..up on me on me..

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk..

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside them jeans

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream

cuz' of my humps my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps

Check it out...

[Will.i.am]

I met a girl down at the disco
She said hey hey hey yeah lets go
I can be ya baby, you could be my honey
Lets spend time not money
And mix your milk with my cocoa puff
milky milky cocoa
mix your milk with my cocoa puff
Milky milky
Riiiiight...

[Fergie]

They say I'm really sexy
The boys they wanna sex me
They always standin next to me
Always dancin next to me
tryin'a feel my hump hump
Lookin at my lump lump
you can look but you can't touch it
if you touch it
I'ma.. start some drama
you don't want no drama
No no drama no no no no drama
So don't
Pull on my hand, boy
you aint my man, boy
I'm just tryna dance, boy

And move my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
my lovely lady lumps my lovely lady lumps
In the back and in the front

my loving got you..

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..and spendin time on me..

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..up on me on me..

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all junk inside that trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside dem jeans

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off this hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that breast
all that breast inside dat shirt

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you work
make you work work make you work

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..and spendin time on me..

[Will.i.am]

Shes got me spendin..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spendin all your money on me..up on me on me..

its so niceeee
thanks elephant!
i return u the cd on monnnndddayy

meanwhile i shall
be saddddd :((((
wahhhhhh

what the heck is goin on?

2005-09-16T12:04:00.000-07:00

can your see the picture???

shit!
why cannot i shall load it again!
wa biang!
!@#$%^^^&&*^%#@^&** (vulgarities! :P)

i shall keep my fingers crossed!!!

episode one!!wahahahha

2005-09-16T11:55:00.000-07:00

hahahaha
i hope you like it !!
by the way, eleeee dun need to lend me lahhh
i wanna buy the exact albummm!
oh welllll i havent benn posting!

woohoooo

2005-09-14T19:08:00.000-07:00

these are the things i need to complete!

1)master side kick (dun ask!)
2)perfect ten sho (dun ask wad that is!)
3)get the new cyndi wang album!

OH NO!
my show has started!
who watches the dragon heros?
7 pm at channel 8?
I DO I DO!!
there are new episodes of happytreefrens
i wanna watch
but the TV comes first!

OOPS
i just realized grading isnt this sat.
its next sat.
phewww

YAY!
no tuiton homeworkie!

charlottes-have u found ur jacket yet?

bus 88

2005-09-14T18:41:00.000-07:00

hmm,i took the bus today
with my mum and daryl
double decker!
i love taking double deckers!
i had expexted the deck to be quite empty
but i was wrong-
there were so many guys
and there was no seat for two
so i had to share a seat wif a guy
indian
i didnt really mind
its just that he stank alot
so i was sitting on the edge of my seat!
i hope he didnt mistake me
for a racist!
all the ppl were GUYS!
some from
catholic high sec(daryl used to go there in pri. days)
some from unknown typess
yahhh
hmmmmmmm
i dunno there is something i wana type
here but i just dunno how to say it
im dumbb
simple.

sharlynn-becky-likim love triangle

2005-09-14T18:32:00.000-07:00

okayy
i must first
xiexie wo baba wo mama wo ahma wo ahgong
.. .. .. .. .. .. ..
presenting..
BECKY-SHARLYNN-LIKIM lurvvvveee triangle!
applause!
(clap..clap..clap!)

do your like it?
i took ages
lets see..
25 minutes?
pheww
i think thats all for today!
hmmm
do any of your use to read love hina?
its sickk
yupssssssss
anyway
yesterday we had prelim 2
what on earth is that?
hmmm
pris,r u going grading tomolo?
whoops!
its not tomolo
on this saturday?
i hope i get my marooon belt!
i one year never go grading liaoxx
very scared
.. wish me luck!
r u going,pris?
even though u arent going?
can come n support?
okkk
maybe u dun want
u study hard lahh

pictures!

2005-09-14T18:00:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmm
i must admit its not as nice as the first one
i shall do sharlynn..
wait ahhhh

nothig hereee

2005-09-14T17:45:00.000-07:00

im very irritated
pissed
fucking hate her
she spoilt my day
really-
spoil
i hate her!
i feel like typing what she did
but hmmm
if i do it then
THAT person will noe who i m..
hmmm
thanks kath!
but u noe my email?
its wrong..
how to change ahhh?
actuallyyy
i still prefer my old one
but i m gonna keep this 'skin'
for a whilee
since u help me
sooo yuppsss
hmmm
kath-do u noe how too change the links?
i wanna add more ppl
pris-i dun tink any of my frens
noe u
(neither does kat)
:)
WOW!
kathleen!
u've become a celebrity liao!
dun need us little peeps!
can i have ur auto graf?
ppl are even fighting over ur bookie!:(
i noe that - dun i
i asked first!
forget it >:(
my wound hurts like hell
HELL
freaking pain
hmmm
airleex..
you change ur 'skin'
its nicer now
i can see the tagboard now!:)
hmmmm
im working on a new picture
dun copy!

ALL RIGHTS ARE RESERVED

DAMNED IT

2005-09-13T18:19:00.000-07:00

shits lahh
cannot really see
ur just click on it then can
but the wordings very tinyy
sighh
soryy kathleen
i thought it would
add a lill humourr
hahhah
oh well
i am so ego
laugh at my own jokess
:) k
mums nagging
i shall do another picture when i cann k?
byeee

kathleen this is to youu

2005-09-13T18:15:00.000-07:00

many thanks to kathleen
i am dedicating this to her
(and if u were wondering,yes i did it on paint)
i spent 10 minutes!

hmmmm
do u like it?
hahhah
anyway
i gotta go
tuition timeeee
see whther dat
si ginny still wear
-yahh u noe

life is beautifull

2005-09-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

hmmm
eleanorks sent me that
when we were fighting
okayy
i am counting on kath
on helping change my bloggie
kath thanks so much
cara,
sorry for the tag incident thing
sorry! -.-"
yahh
wow kathleen
you are such a geniuss
u helped charlottes
now me
sorry mannnn
anyways
i have no music to listen now
marion lent kath!
gwen lent to ele!
hmmm
oh well
i going tuition soonnn

finally can see the words

2005-09-07T18:21:00.000-07:00

i am rejoicing!

hmmm
i dunno if youre can see this

i was crying like mad just now
when i posted the last post,
i could not see anything
no posts just the picture
i thought i lost my blog
alll my time gone
so i cried
then i just tried and tried and
i got the posts to show
so
happeeeeee

hmmm
eleanor
i forgive la
one cannot always bear grudges huh?
:)

tuition news :(

2005-09-07T18:04:00.000-07:00

i am laughing like mad already
this is so funny

i just came back from tuition
this guy
gun tai (i dunno how to spell la)
he was the only guy in the class today
cos cedric and some other guy didnt come

wait-
i tell u dis part first
that si ginny
wa lao! go wear a damn low cut shirt
can see her bra
-black bra somemore
got the words sexy behind
then gun tai was pratically
drooling eyes popping out
ginny is such a slut
she and that sheryl
laugh giggle giggle like crazy
how am i suppose to study?

then after a while
gun tai keep on saying
'oohhhhh'
when the teacher explain
when he dunno somemore
then he do alot of stupid things la
everybody laughed
then later
sheryl and ginny go toilet
few seconds later
luwinya (how the hel do u spell that?)
also need to go toilet too
then it was only the teacher,gun tai and me
then he say alot of stupid things
the teacher and i laff la
later ginny and others come back
gun tai keep on
turning behind
stare at us
-eyes like popping out
like siao liao
we all laff like siow
then later gun tai purposely bump into us
when we want to go out
(tuition over laio)
then he look at us
as if its our fault
we laughed our selves crazy
when we went out
i went to the toilet
when i came out
gun tai also come out
he shocked to see me
he did that crazy eye opping thingy again
i laughed
then i saw his mum
his mum glare at me
(like im flirting with her son)
HELL NO!!
does she know that gun tai
has blue-ish lips
who would flirt with him?
anyway i told myself not to fall
in love with any guys
(well not at the moment)
and
my standards are definately
higher
i dun go for blue lips.
hahha

CHOCOLATE!!!

2005-09-07T17:36:00.000-07:00

okay
i am freaking fucking pissed with
a somebody

i had to puke out all the chocolate
i ate just now
-i never really liked chocolate
i only ate it was because
i was feeling damn hungry
(the chocolates were my breakfast)
and i ate the cold hard chocolates
they tasted horrible
why do your all like chocolate soo much?
i still got that big box of ferero rocher
chocolates sitting on my bed
:) that is different
ferero rochers are nice!!
maybe i'll eat one later-
wait i have to finish the box of GUYLIAN chocs
unknown brand
you know all those type of chocolates
with hazelnuts in them?
they have two types in the GUYLIAN brand one
usually the hazelnuts are big... ... !!??!!!!
(OMG-kathleen not nuts ok?)
but the nuts in there are so small
(how on earth do u rephrase this question??)
and that is so stingy
hmm
i better go pig myself
out before daryl comes back home!

you think things are alright now?

2005-09-05T12:07:00.000-07:00

we both know things are not gonna be alright]]

hmm
things are better now i hope
i just hope my greatest fear
wont come true
after psle

anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!
i never knew it was her bday
hmm
i always thought it was in october
i think it was somebody elses bday thenn..
well better than having her bday
in october!:)

things are getting
way overboard these days
well..that is
ever since last week
every song
that reminds me of jane just keeps
on playing!
the thing-i dont feel sad
like 'hear me' played in the morning
-when my cd player was on ramdom mood somemore!
and yesterday evertime played to
just that not on my cd player
daryl turned on
the speakers to full blast
everyone could hear it
well,
you cant expect me
to not be reminded of jane huh?
well i still am sometimes
(this morning as well.)
i just sat there on my bed
and just frown
but there was no feelings in me
so i guess
i really have gotten over jane!
:) I HOPE.
FINGERS CROSSED
*wish me luck*

it was not meant to be everlasting

2005-09-04T17:16:00.000-07:00

kathleen,you lucky girl!
you got an mp3??
wow!
thats so .. .. cool?
hmmm
i would like to haf an mp3 too
but right now i m contented with
my cd player! :)
but i would prefer a creative to an mp3
creatives are so cute!
i dunno why but i think most ppl
prefer an ipod
creative has more features anyway
i like the lime green one
*hint hint
it reminds me nataniel though
*frowns
dont get me wrong
i have and will never haf feelings for nataniel
(he has the lime green one)
he showed me what was playing on it
it was 'she will be loved' by maroon 5
'songs about jane'
but that was about 3 months ago
so it was simply a coincedence.
yupsss

(nothing)

2005-09-04T17:08:00.000-07:00

lies werent the only solution]]

i m in the mood!(to type)
just now i typed something but did not
feel like typing
anyway
i feel as if i noe how to control
my feelings better
now i should just concentrate
in being a nerd
then go worry but other irrelavant subjects :)
(i hope)
yaahhhhh
i just burned three discs for my bro
(who still does not know what is going on.)
he keeps on borrowing my disc!:(
so irritating!
my simple plan disc oso gone!
wa lao!kelly clarkson oso gone!
even my newest of all my discs
marion raven disc also gone
one of these days
i shall let him know how it feels to
open his cd case i find that all his cds are missing!
so my dad suggested that i burn my discs for him
bother
but if not for him, i would not be here!
KATHLEEN!
u very lucky leh!
i saw the DUDE,wheres my car add thingy
and wanted to watch it
but i was feeling very sick
so i slept at about 8 something
after coming back from training
and became a lazy pig instantly!
:) i think there is one part
when ashton kutcher (issit correct spelling?)
went to ask the other guy what his back's tatoo said
'dude!what does my tatoo say?'
then the 'dude' said
'dude! what does mine say?'
then the 'first dude' will go
'sweeeeeeeeeee-eeeeett'
and they kept on repeating the same thing
it was so stupid!but i laughed all the same
anyway
do any of your read the book
ERAGON or ELDEST??
hmmmm
i was reading it just now
so interesting-
murtagh was the traitor i think
ok i shall not post anything to do with the books
cos none of ur will get anything!
ciao!

this is what i have decided

2005-09-02T20:06:00.000-07:00

but from all the wrongs you make it right and forgive me]]

i am crying like mad
in spite of me is making me
so so sad

wahhh

oh well
i cannot always carry on like that
i willl end up killing myself

anyways-
have any of your gone
to kathleens bloggie??

haha!it was so so funneee
LLLOOOOO LLLLOOOO KKIIIINNNSSS

wahahahhaahah

btw,
is death related stuff the in thing now??

just asking!!

go kathleens blog
instead off reading all these shit

go to hers!!
go have laffing fits!!
:)
btw-
eleanor
are you sure the model agency called u??

do u noe
that they cannot just call you like that??
ughhh
how to explain
okk
put it simple
(i shall try)

the model agency
(k lets refer it to m.a so i dun haf to type
the entire freakin' thing)

..
the m.a either
is related to u in some way
or they haf either BUMPED into you
like see u in the street
STRUTTING A POSE
shaking ur bottom
or u r either looking damn
photogenic??

(do u get it?)

so tell me
what is the reason?

final statement-the end-end of story

2005-09-02T20:01:00.000-07:00

we built up walls no one could climb
in the end
of whats left and done
our hard work came crashing down]]

i have
(and i will keep it that way forever)
given jane up completely

pris, if u read this
please dont mention this to me ok?
i have suffered enuff
thanks :(

just one more time

2005-09-02T19:45:00.000-07:00

maybe you could be mine again]]

okk
this is part of my song
that
i have not
but shall
continue writing it
:)

i think this is supposed to be the chorus

[chorus]

even on my deathbed
i shall never reveal
the corpse
that was once
hidden
behind the veil

its supposed to be of two lovers
the girl was madly in love wif the guy
only realising that
he was in love with another girl
she killed him
and blahhhh blaahhh

i shall continue it
when i feel like it
basically i was doing it
only because
i was feeling damn wu liao

oh well

i m so
so
freaking
fucking
absoulutely
amazingly

FUCKING
FREAKING
ABSOULUTELY
AMAZINGLY

depressed

and no
i am
not going to
like jane back again
i am going to STOP
all these shit
right now

_____________

and the reason
was because
we
could
and never will be
together

lets just say
put it nice-nice

IMPOSSIBLE

between the two of us
_________________

not a very nice ending
_________________

a never ending story

2005-09-02T19:30:00.000-07:00

we will be together one day]]
okk
u noe the dan-kelly-fiona love trianglefrom caras bloggy?
well heres wad i think MIGHT happen:
fiona will give dan up to kellyshe feels that this is the only thing to docause she doesnt want to ruin her friendship wif kellyfiona wants to migrate to aussie(that part was irrelevant)
okthe end end of story
_____________________
carai wasnotprocastinating(SHIT!suddenlycannot spell-issit correct anyway?)
i meant it when isaid i thought u were chioand i do not careif u think i am procastinatingyou or notyou can say whatever shit ok?i know what i sayand i know what i mean!
___________________________
final showdown:
fiona gives dan upkelly lives happily ever afterbears dan eighteen kids(eight is a lucky number-ohwell any number wif a eight inside :) )
just joking
_____________________________
i m not denying
i m feeling way out of bounds
little stuff now trigger
me shouting @ ppl
thats because
............
...................
........................
...............................
........................
....................
.............
i have given jane up
______________________________
it wasnt right anyway
i knewthere was something pulling me back
___________________________
i watch the jue dui superstar
KELVIN!!
woooohhoooo
he deserved to win man!
i dunnno whythat bitch of a female judge
keep on-BITCHING-
i haf something against her
def haf something against her
__________________________
GUESS WHAT?that bitchy judge
WAS
my mums good fren in school
(last time-of corse lahh)
i was like<>

____________________________
my dad told me
they still fightingsighhhhh
________________________

i got that feeling when i see your face

2005-09-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

we could see the shadows thatere growing in the distance]]

i remember those times
i first met jane
there are no words to describe
how i felt
i only knew that
no good was going to come out of it

in the end

(now the present)

i m living in a world
with sad ppl crying
some are dying
and maybe one day
i will be that way too

its not that i have not given jane up
completely
i know i have
and its neither good nor bad
what i feel
now is never what your will understand

no longer together

2005-08-31T19:15:00.000-07:00

i am feeling just sad
not depressed

maybe this is better
me alone
all by myself

its just that
will i be able
to do it?

i shall try
its the only way
isn't it?

i'm better off alone by now]]

its just that
jane
is so
hard
to give up

i shall post my results
(whether i manage to give jane up,or not)

i'll try my very best
its the only way out

kelly,fiona and dan

2005-08-31T19:07:00.000-07:00

okayy
i dunn noe if ur haf read
the kelly-dan
fiona-dan
thingy in caras blogg
but i did :(
so much for reminding
me of the past huh?
oh well its still
going
onnnnn
annnnnnd
onnnnnnnnn
its never ending
a never ending story]]

suddenly everywhere
around me is filled with doubt
stuff like:

is he really the one for me?
do i really love him?
will i do everything just for him?
am i really certain that i will foresake everything?
am i really sure that i will be happy liking him?

the thing-
i used to think
of course
cause jane meant everything
to me
i used to know the answer
to these questions
(which was yes)
but
now
i
feel
like
as
if
everything
is
beyond
my
reach

thats because i know
i'm no longer certain
of my feelings

i have nothing left already

its just me to cry alone

i used to have a shoulder
to lean upon

but..

now
that
shoulder
is
gone

leaving me to collapse
down to the darkness
where my eyes could not see
anything

anything
but the times
we spent time together

just need to click the damn thing

2005-08-31T17:43:00.000-07:00

ohhh
i see if u wanna go
kath or pris or eleanor
(cara i shall edit my post when u agree to
letting me put it up k?)
so just click on -
www.fakelies.blogspot.com for kathleen
www.dreamme-.blogspot.com for pris
www.bruised-and-battered-by-your-words.blogspot.com

okayy
just now i went to www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
and was laughing hysterically like a hyena
do go to eat
they haf some sick stuff
and plenty of ' fuckers,fuck,fucking' words in there
it is so interesting
the most interesting blog i haf ever read
the pictures make me smile :)
do check it out
its furneeeee

bloggies

2005-08-31T17:38:00.000-07:00

okayy
cos i havent got my tag board etc..etc
i'll just type out my frens bloggs

pris :))www.dreamme-.blogspot.com ( okayy.. i doubt any of ur
will understand what she is writing-pris,you dun mind me putting
ur bloggie up here do u?:) )

kathleen :)) www.fakelies.blogspot.com kathleens blog is so milky!!
hmm..so weird for pris blog (now) i can see blue color when i type in the bloogie
but kaths wan do have k i try again-still cannot! :( weird
okay!!yay!!now can!!after 5 tries!!wa lao!!

mas-cara :)) okay wait cara-do u wabt me to type it out here?
tel me in school k?eleanor,pris,kath and blahh blahh blahh ppl will see it
fine wif u??
i dunno la u tel me in school k?

eleanor a.k.a. airleex :)) www.bruised-and-battered-by-your-words.blogspot.com
phew!that WAS looooooooong luckyy the computer stores it inside
otherwise u gotta type so many times!!

yeah thats all!!

and cara- i was only playing wif the pen knife
i only poked myself-no blood though, but u had bllod coming out
doesnt that make u even
more sucidal than me??
besides i wouldnt chose to DIE in school anyway
preferably
my room
shut the door
and
die peacefully

no much more than confused

2005-08-31T16:17:00.000-07:00

a mean reply so i scream]]

i am so so depressed
why must things be so sucky?
i am depressed bcos of
jane and someone else
i dun wan to like come in between
ppl and break them apart
and go round laughing like
its no big deal
i thought it over last night
and that stupid woman
said i stole her monkey!!
what the hell?
who is HER monkey anyway?
her monkey has her name
carved on his/her butt???
ughh
should i just
stop
all
this
shit
and
carry
on
living?
or
should
i
just
end
it
all
just
like
that
:(

what is wrong wif ppl??

2005-08-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

okayy
(oh ya-hi)
i am so so feeeling weird lorh
at the commendation awards thingy
when Miss Dai called KARATE
all the parents went <>
and it wasnt soft
it was super loud
i was so so embarrased
i wanted to hide away screaming 'you lunatics!!'
of course that was not a possible thingto do
all the same-it was okayy
except for the fact that i had to pee urgently
so when i went up the stage
i was walking so so slowly
for fear that my pee might just flooooooowout!!
yeah(is that gross?)
anyway-i met my fren Jeanie
she came out from handbells i think
she was wearing gloves!!
yeah i made a fren too
she is sec 2(same as Jeanie)
damn goody girl lorh
prefect somemore
MISS CHARLENE TAN XUE MEI :)
prefect+perfect=perfect prefect
she is nicee she is in the best secondary2 class
wa lao!!
so smarttsports class somemore!!
*jealous*

guilt stricken :(

2005-08-29T15:36:00.000-07:00

okay
i deleted my second post so u wun c it
cos i posted something
about one of my frens
and she was very nice to me
so i felt very guilty
especially cause i noe her blog
and i feel bad doing this to her

i knew the glass would end up broken

2005-08-29T15:29:00.000-07:00

i feel a sense of insecurity when you are with me]]

okayy
something really hurt me
i am crying my heart out now
and i can feel my heart aching
it really was very painful like as if
a wood splinter went inside

anyways
eleanor-hey,thanks for the prezzie
i haf no idea wad is wrong wif u ppl!
i said there was no need to buy a present!
i didnt even hold a party so why ur waste money 4 wad
sighhh

haiya
anyway thanks joan and joan?
ok it sounds weird!but i love that book that joan
a.k.a mee goreng
gave me especially all the junk inside!!!:)
thanks joan!!
i like the pen and especialy the hp thingy
(i forgot waad u call it)
issit called a hp chain??
nahh dun think sooo
yeah-i tried the lip glosss
it is so shiny!!thanks but
i will feel weird if i wear it outside dun u think?
like ppl will stare at me
like 'this ger ahh-wa lao eh so vain lorh!'
cause its like kinda obvious if i wear it and
its also obvious that i am stll below secondary schooll age
so yeah i dunnoe laa
but its very nice
i love all my presents!!
:) thanks you guys!!!

calista equals self centered girl :|

2005-08-29T15:14:00.000-07:00

i blame myself for being stupid]]

hahhahah
heyy
i just chatted wif calista
that self centered girl
is in school
(apparantely she said that she is staying back 4 fun)
yeahh anyway-
cara could u post something new?
i haf been reading the same stuff!
yay!kathleeeeen-u done wif the bookie??
anyways-
my stomach is so full
i ate rice plus veggie only,
two sausages
(and no kathleen-no dirty thoughts please!)
kathleen
why do i have a feeling
that u are eating queitly enjoying a KINKY KOOKIE??
hahahhaha
joking laaaaahhh
so sick i noe
but what can u expect from me??
OH YA,its my mums birthday today
and she is still in a bad mood :(
yeah-parents had a fight..sighhhhhhhh
her birthday is spoilt lorhhh
yeaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
okae i TRY to post only three posts today!!

another one :(

2005-08-28T20:18:00.000-07:00

okay
i m feeling way more than just
depressed
take a look at this :(
Jane had a ribbon of length 1.2 m. If she cut the ribbon into pieces of length 3.6 cm each, how many pieces did she get? (Marks: 2.0)
A. 31 B. 32 C. 33 D. 34
huhh
thanks alot
they just made my day worse

nonsense shit stuff

2005-08-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

okay
this is my 21st post my hand aches
i have posted alot of shit in these three days
hmmmm
21 posts in 3 days
ok my average is 7 posts each day wow
i must be nuts man!
yeah but i do moreatonce too
so i dun really just come here to post like sioww
okaayyy what should i say
ok i went to lovecalculator
i got so shocked!
jane and me r like super low lorh!
and that FREAK of a tanchinhong is 75 percent
eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwww
(coughing and spitting blood everywhere)
no freaking way man
he is the worlds biggest git!!
ugly!!jerk!!oh what the fuck??
anyway i do not believe in that shit
its like random stuff picking
i only went there cos my bro(daryl)
told me that he tried my name n chinhonks name
and it was damn low lorh
(he SAID that when chinhong saw it he was so sad)
boohoo
tissue anyone??
oh well and you can imagine my expression when i saw
75 percent
my jaw dropped really i was traumatised
NO NO NO FREAKING WAYYYYYY
-------------------------------------------------
chinhong is an idiot
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
PRIS-i know you r so so shocked eh??
well dun believe it cos all these are bullshit :l

why must you keep reminding me of the past?

2005-08-28T19:51:00.000-07:00

okay
now if you lok closely you can see
a red line on my wrist
it burns yeow
hurts a litle bit
yums!i just ate mangoo!!
one mango all to myself!
hahahah cos my mum bought alot of mangoes
so she said it didnt matter even if i ate one entire mango myself!
i just watched the trailer for harry potter and the goblet...
it is so nice!hermione is so pretty in that pink(was it pink?oh well)gown
sad thing is viktor was ugly i thought
he would be so cute but eeee so ugly
i still dunno how cho loks like
harry and ron looklike retards wif that blur sotong look!!
hahah the hungaran horntail(i cannot remember the spelling)
is sos soo cool it can breathe fire cool!!!
cedric is ugly too why r all the guys UGLY?
all the girls so chio bu-hahaha
but i expected a more glam fleur delacour
she sounded as if she was so chio bu man
but she looked anything but unique
hermione is pretttttier so much more man
daryl said that cho is VERY chioooo
(whistle whistleee)
yeahhh i shall watch more trailers
i want to find out what the meaning of chio to him means
sighhhhhhh
i found something on the net
which really made my day today
and i keep laughing at something cara told me
now all i need is..
HEY!wait!i m not going to say it it sounds too
weird?stupid?hahahahah any of those u pick
oh well i went to sembawangyesterday
and i saw goodcharlottes cd
i almost bought it
if not for the picture of the band,
my dad would haf bought it for me
but no he didnt he thought
they were drug addicts but they arent!!!!
wahhhhhhhhhhh

tears of blood

2005-08-28T18:39:00.000-07:00

is there such thing as crying blood out?

heyy
ok my wrist is hurting like
siow i scratched it until alot of skin
came falling out
ok no alot
but u could see pieces of rolled up skin
falling out
it hurts
ok
i was feeling very sad
i remembered the time when i first met jane
n when i just last saw her
and i just LOST it
and wanted to end it all
it did not work
cos i m already dead

wow]]
the undead can type
coollll
my mumms birthday is tomorrow
oh now i remember
caras bros birthday is today
no wonder she is not on msn
boohoo
no one is online so bored
i can see JANE waving
my first dream
i see see no
no i shall not type what i jus saw

bye
i need to use a scissors now
slit slit
slash
blood
boohoo
the undead
just died
--
again
U WONT SEE ME TOMORROW

nonsenical stuff

2005-08-28T18:08:00.000-07:00

okay this is shit post

what song did marion raven sing?
a)the pokemon song
b)the lion king song
c)kim possible song
d)my happy ending

in spongebob squarepants which character
hates crabby patties?
a)gary
b)patrick
c)squidward(how to spell)
d)mr.crab

okay i have no idea why i did that
i was feeling bored i guesssss
yupp okayy
i need help getting a tagboard!!
help
woman in distress!!!
and you call for
a)the fire brigade
b)counsellor
c)high court
d)the police

hey-wait i already did that
ok i shall sat up a quiz of my friends!
kathleen is-
a)corupted
b)KINKY
c)horny
d)likes to drive lexus
cara is-
a)corupted
b)furneeeee
c)helpfull
d)KINKY

diane is
a)talkative
b)bimbotic
c)squeaky
d)crazy

OK for everyone all their choices are them
eh..how to sayahhhh
sighh nevermind

who are the bimbos in class?
no 1-diane
no2-kath
no3-me(i think i am a bimbo m i??)
oh well there are plenty more
cara should be a bimbo actually
its just that she is smart
bimbos are dumb and pretty
ok i sound super EGO

CARA is smart and preeeeeeeety
thats why she cant be a bimbo
issit???
cos she is smart!:)

like a whitered rose

2005-08-28T17:58:00.000-07:00

youve been keeping me inside]]

okay
i m missing jane more than ever
these songs really get me crying
-13 days
-for you i'll die
-six feet under
-inspite of me
-gotta be kidding
-hear me
-numb
-everytime(simp.plan)
and many many more
they make me think too much
seriously-

crisis ladies!a distressed lady!help her!

2005-08-28T16:23:00.000-07:00

okay
this is emergency ladies!!!
theres a woman in distress!!
and who do we call for help?
a)captain underpants
b)the powerepuff girls
c)the x-men team
d)spongebob and patrick

JOKES ASIDE CHARMAINE!!

okay okay okay
(but if u were wondering..''CHARMAINE!!!'')
okay okay
just a little humour!!
okay fine(grumbling)
down to business''thats better!''
will you stop it already?
(that voice was my..''CHARMAINE!!''..conscience.)

ok ok
(names have been changed)
---------------------------------
i have this friend ashlee
ashlee is a girl
(dont we all noe that?)
yeah-ok
ashlee used to be
really reallyreally...really best friends witha girl
called queenie
(horrible name isnt it?horrible names 4 horrible ppl)
yeah thay always thought that their friendship wouldbe everlasting
(oh i forgot not all names have been changed
ashlee and nick's real names r changed to ashlee n nick)
then--ashlee liked/loved this guy
(ha!u knew a guy would come on somehow huh?)
anyways-queenie liked him tooo
(and then you know wad happens--)
they had a fight bout some stuff
-nickand other stufff too
so the DREAM TEAM WAS BROKEN APART
(tragic eh?)
yeah so
queenie became buddies with a girl called jean yee
ashlee became buddies with joanne
when everything was still bad
the only thing THE EVIL QUEEN
could do was to make it even worse
she started to
PULL ASHLEE'S HAIR
STEP ON ASHLEE'S SHOES
CALL ASHLEE NAMES
ashlee wanted to do sometin
but it wasnt as simple as u think
queenie was all the teachers pet
(even if the principal walked by-he/she would say helloto queenie)
so it was therefore concluded
that ashleecould not do anything
so queenie wanted to make ashlee's life
even more suck-ier
she started to steal away joanne away from ashlee

there is more of this terrible plight
but my hand is aching so very much

so i need your help
-what should ashlee do to queenie withoutgetting into trouble
-what does she do to prevent her from becoming friendless??
THAT,all depends on u!!please help!!thanks!!

btw-cara i need all your help in this subject
youre good in this arent u??
thanks!! :)

i was forsaken

2005-08-28T14:09:00.000-07:00

you came to me with words unspoken]]

ohh
if your were wondering
the answere to that JANE question
SHOULD be 1.90
i shall seeee
i dunno lah
i am typing all these shit cause i m feeling super

a)KINKY
b)HORNY
c)BORED
d)SUCIDAL
if u answered a, partially correct
if u answered b, partially wrong
if u answered c, correct
if u answered d, deffinately correct

so did u get it right??
hahhahahah
i told you it was shit

okayy
in school ppl in our class are usually

a)reading magazines under the table
b)passing notes
c)stoning
d)doodling pictures on pieces of paper

if u gueesed/answered a and b it is REGULARLY
'' c and d it is RARELY
if u must know i am referin to the number of ppl doing
the 'actions' above so if the number is small then it would be RARELY ok???
so even if u see a few ppl stoning like crazy
it is still not ALOT

i shall carry the quiz later
cause mee goreng is talking to me at the same time
and i cannot concentrate on doing two stuff at once
it drives me NUTS
hahahahhah
NUTS!!!!oh well i warned u
but did u listen??
guess not huh??
oh well
thats just the way NERDS are
dont blame me
i have had posted alot of stuff liao
byeeeeeeeee

thats what i hate about you

2005-08-28T13:55:00.000-07:00

JANE!!
-you ask questions that i find hard to reply okay??
-you lied about that u forgot about your bloggg
-you like to ask weird stuff
WHY WHY WHY??
okay those are janes bad points

yeahh
anyway i was doing moreatonce
maths question-
Mock Exam Paper 02 Section B(2005)
Type of Test: Short Answer
and my jaw dropped when i saw this question
-------------------------------------------------
One pencil costs 52 cents and 1 pen costs 90 cents. How much more will Jane spend if she buys 5 pens instead of 5 pencils?Give your answer in cents but exclude the ´c´ sign in your answer.

hahahahah
anyway i m used to it already
i just chatted with pris on msn
(pris-dun worry la i wont tell la
nice blog too :) )
yeah i still dun haf a tagboard
i shall TRY to hurry up
actually i m just lazie
maybe i should ask kath or cara for help???
i dunnnno
sighhhhhhhhhhhhh
janee :l

i need a shoulder to lean on

2005-08-28T13:26:00.000-07:00

okay
this song(little by little)
is reducing me to tears
it is so niceeeee
yeahh
sighhhhhhhhh

A mean reply, so I screamAnother fight about nothing at allAnd then we cry and forgivePromising that we will never fall againI know this much is trueHeyLittle by littleI think we'll understand thisLittle by littleI think we'll comprehend itLittle by littleYou'll take me as I am yeahLittle by littleIt'll take some time to find it outTo make a change, you gotta change your mindCause it's hard enough to get a gripIt's hard as it is without us being left behindI know this much is trueHeyLittle by littleI think we'll understand thisLittle by littleI think we'll comprehend itLittle by littleYou'll take me as I am yeahLittle by littleI don't careIf you don't say itI don't care‘Cause I know itNo, we don't careIt'll take some time to find it outTo make a change, you gotta change your mindI don't care if you don't say itNo I don't care(Little by little)If you don't say it(I think we'll understand this)Yeah(Little by little)I think we'll comprehend itLittle by littleYou'll take me as I am yeahLittle by little(Little by little)(I think we'll understand this)We don't care at all(Little by little)(I think we'll comprehend it)We don't care(Little by little)(You'll take me as I am yeah)Little by little(Little by little)(I think we'll understand this)(Little by little)(I think we'll comprehend it)

dun u find it 'saddening??'
i am crying like sioww
someone PLEASE hand me a tissue
(the tissue with the word '*special' on it
if u can get ur hands on it
i prefer that brand (: )

selfish thoughts for myself ):

2005-08-28T13:18:00.000-07:00

okay
this is so freaking me out
my dad said that God gave him a dream
last last night
saying' you have not brought your children up well,
that is why they are not blessed.'
is it because
jane is non-christian
hey-what is wrong with
loving a non christian??
is it even wrong to love somebody?
okay i admit
i havent been spending any 'quality time'
with God at alll
but this going to change
i'll try my best to
but the Jane subject is really difficult
what do i do??
cara,kath i need your help
i m stuck in this subject
sighhh
now all i need
is for Jane to be christian
but that istoo much too ask
dont you think?
isnt it selfish of me
to force 'her'to be a christian
when she doesnt even want to?
thats like making 'her' a christian
only so it is 'safe' to love 'her'??
instead of making her chriatian
so that she can live for all eternity??
i am so fugging selfish

sad sadddd

2005-08-28T12:44:00.000-07:00

hiii
sighhh
guess wad?
i did not go training in the end
) : yahh
nevermind lahh
i was just looking forwardd to it
yeahh
but not goin has its advantages too
i dont get butt cramps hahah
yeahh
you know sumthing??
all my friends(except eleanor-ithink)
has pms because they have started
WOMAN-AGE
frankly-i feel really left out
hahahah stupid rite??
my best friend(pris)started toooo
so cheer up pris!!!
you just gotta with to 40 yrs more
and itll be OVER
hey-who likes 'BLEEDING'anyway??

i will die for you if i have to

2005-08-26T21:17:00.000-07:00

JANEEEEEE
wheeeeeeee
yay!!!i going training tomolo!!!!!
JANEEEEEE
missing you!!!
JANEEEEEE
if i have to die for you i will!!!!
JANEEEEEE
i will always love you
*forever

the four asses combinds to one

2005-08-26T21:15:00.000-07:00

heyyy

i dun think any of you get my
the four asses combines together
heee heee so kinky
k i sound like kaths bro
(note to self stop sayin kinky)
=pyeah k where was i????
oh yeah..
in the last post
i stated sarah and phyllis
i guess u noe who they r huh???
yeah-anyways i changed phyllis to
samantha sam for short
i m suze
n cara is stephanie
stephie or stephie
so
we are 4 s ses
get it
then we combine together
blow at the three backstabbing bitches
and pee-eewww
it stinks!!!hahahaha
i know its very lame!!
but what can u expect from ppl like me eh???
till then
will post more!!!
now i shall tok to sarah on msn
its funnnn
cos we talk bout corupted stuffies
yeahhhhhh
shrooms for instance
so kinky!!!!
(whoops.did i just say KINKY???!!hahah
oh well.note to self-start saying KINKY)
KINKY!!!
note to readers-if you find this disturbing to you
do not come back to this blog cause
there are more sick stuff coming up
JUST FOR YOU (:

sneaky liars sneaky backstabbers

2005-08-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

I SAT NEXT TO LIKIM
sorry *sarah
i didnt want to she came up to where i was sitting
and sat next to me
i was like
'r u sitting here???'really coldly to her
and she was like'yeah.there was no other seat you see'
ughh she was in directly
pin pointing that if there was another seat
she would haf definately sat there
cos she does not want to be seen sitting
with LOSERS like me
yeah i cannot blief
she did such a bad thing to *sarah
she is a wolf in sheep skin
ugghhhh
i hate her
you know i think she noes i noe
that she backstabbed *sarah
cos she asked'you hate me right?'
and i couldnt be bothered to answer
OF COURSE I HATE HER
and mind you *sarah's not the only one
she backstabbed
she backstabed *phyllis
too and now i m not even sure
if her next target is me
NO WAY
I M NO PUSH OVER
i'll like to see her try

if its fate-i'll accept it

2005-08-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

heyyy
OK today was HELL day man
oh i forgot i m already dead
i slit my wrist
yesterday-i tried
so i m the un dead
onto why today was so sucky
we had this commendation shit
i'd never wanted to go
but i had to yeah
sighhh
i was so so embarrased
the teacher announced my name
''THE ONLY KARATE GER''
wa lao la
so embarrasing
frankly-i like karate
but no way
no hell way
i do not want to be known as that shit
this is just the beginning
imagine the actual
wif all the mums and dads
LAUGHING at me
oh my god
this cannot be happening!!!
okay
i am dying to read the mediator bk5
kathleen-take ur time!!!
i am just so curious
to noe wad happened
cos jesse kissed her
n i dunno la
i was reminded of my first dream
of jane
we were sitting in the hall
(CLEMENTI)
there was this performance lor
n cara and charlotte
were supposed to be there too
but naturally-i was late
n i sat in a yellow circle
with some south east asian dancers
n then jane suddenly appeared!!!
n then 'she' put 'her' arm on my neck
and brought me closer to 'her'
and then..
we WERE about to kiss
(okay-i noe i feel weird ven typing this)
then when
we were about to do the kissing
(do u think he is a good kisser??hahah joking la)
my alarm went
oh a real joy-giver
and i was really
fragile at that moment so i cried and cried
oh n if u were wondering
i had that dream on the 5th of june
but you know
i know i love him
(ok cara-r u happy now that i confessed??)
but if its fate
that jane and i cannot be together
then ill accept it
on my deathbed
yeah ok
my hands r tired
(p.s. i had lunch with chloe
me n her had no one to go with
so i asked her if she wants to go with me
and she said'yeah..why not??'
it was nice la
shes not bad after all
rating-8/10
but if she hates u
wahhhh trouble
yeah!!!!!
so fun today
got dodge ball
but CHARLEEN
kept on hitting me in the face
sighhhh
cara got hit by me on the head tooo
(sorry cara did it hurt???)
yeahhh
but it was still a SHITTY day
(p.s.s i have successfully CORUPTED
kathleen hehehhehehheh)
byeeeeeeeee

the trutn is infectious;the confession is too late

2005-08-26T05:38:00.000-07:00

hahhahahaah
i am laughing like siow
i watching the emperors new groove
yeah so stupid right??
kathleen has been 1000000 percent guarantee
CORUPTED
yay!!!so happy!!!she is the first person i have corupted!!
success in one day!!!
woohoo=P
YEAH i dunno
my eve has suddenly gone puffy
i can feel the presence leh
my eye has gone -no it has a strange 'aura' around it
okay wait i go check
(10 seconds..tick tock tick tock)
okay-i have PUFFYeyes hahaha
i look retarded my eyes are slits
eeewww i loook like a FREAK ahhahaha
CARA!!!all your fault lorh!nah.jkjkjkjkjk
(cos cara always ahve puffy eyes-i think)
heyyyy
some BITCH
went to
oh shit
my mums coming
later!!!!

this is fucking irritatin

2005-08-25T21:45:00.000-07:00

this shit is soo big
i cannot EDIT
so stressful!!!!
AAAHHHHH
wheres cara when you need her???

HELP!!!

i'll die for you in thirteen days

2005-08-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

heyy!!!
i forgot to say many thanks to-

CARA!KATHLEEN!PRIS!

pris-even if you dont know my bloggie now
you shall noe sooner k??
CARA:))thanks a buch
i know ive done a million injustice to u
but you sill forgave me
you made me learn that i should
treasure this friendship
KATH:))heyy
cheer up
dont let those things that
happened in school
bring u down!!frens4ever
PRIS:))hiya pris
i noe even though we dont see each other
every day of our lives
but
we'll always be
best friends forever!!(p.s.wad
is ur blog again??)
JANE:))
refer to the title!!
heehee

yeah well thats all
my dads here
hearing the gate shut!!
oh no
gtg!!

wake me up before i change my mind

2005-08-25T19:34:00.000-07:00

hey i m back is this too big or smal i dunno'this blog thing is driving me nuts so stressful izzit bcos nerds arent good at all these bloggin computer relate gizmos stuff?? cos i really suck in this thing i think i have a few strands of white hair now oh boy yeah my mums birthday is this sundae (ice-cream!!!yum!!) yeah- wad should i get for her?? oh yeah she lurves this ENGLEBERD HUMPERDING cd-damn slow lor eeww hump-perding oh my god sry i m really corupted my bros sec4fren really did a hell of a job corupting meee and engle BERD eeewwww sick-yeah but i like some of his songs la talented old guy but our generation music is better!!!!! woot!!!

time is ticking

2005-08-25T17:36:00.000-07:00

helo!!!i dunno i didnt really find this creepy so i took iti noe its dumbbut everyone always goes and make their blog with allthe hearts and everything-not that it sucks-i just wanted somethingstupid?yeahokayi dint feel lke posting anything actuallyits only bcoskath and caraare pushing meeeeto do so and i am doing itttyeahhhokayythis blog suckscaras one is so so much betterso is kathssighhhi dun even noe why i m making a bloggalways said it was a waste of time-
looks like im wasting time now!!!!heee